Now, when I ask this question of God, I usually ask in false humility. What I really want is God to reassure me of my qualifications and giftedness. What I really want is God to pump up my self-esteem, to inflate my already in-danger-of-popping ego. I am really saying, "Please remind me how awesome I am so that I'll be confident enough to do this."
And I fully expect God to respond, "Jared, you're good enough, smart enough, and doggone it, people like you."
This not what God said to Moses. In fact, he really didn't even answer the question "Who is Moses?" He answered the question "Who is God?"
The answer, of course, is God.
But Moses said to God, "Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?"
And God said, "I will be with you. And this will be the sign to you that it is I who have sent you: When you have brought the people out of Egypt, you will worship God on this mountain."
-- Exodus 3:11-12
"Who am I?"
"Never mind who you are. You're right; you're a nobody. But you are called. I will be with you. And the sign of your success will not be a gold watch and a plaque and a place in Superduper Church Magazine's 100 Most Awesomest Churches and Pastors with Mad Leadership Skills, but worship of me."
Moses' "oh" consisted of more questions.
Moses said to the LORD, "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue."
The LORD said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
-- Exodus 4:10-12
You've likely heard the dictum "God doesn't call the qualified, he qualifies the called."
This is why God uses shepherds, fig farmers, youngest sons, prostitutes, widows, etc.
This is why he uses sinners. Not so that they will realize their potential. Not so that they will finally see how inherently awesome they are. Not so they can live their best life now or become a better you (a better them?). Not so, as a church radio ad I heard this morning promised, God can bring out the best in them.
God uses sinners so that he will get the glory and so that he will get the glory in the vivid, repeating imagery of turning ashes to beauty.
God made man out of dirt. We -- you and I -- are dirt.
We only need to read a little bit of Paul to see how little he cares about human credentials and qualifications. And Paul actually had them.
The gospel is not the power to save because of our knowledge, our techniques, our systems, our innovations, our preaching style, our music style, our creativity, our conferences, our degrees, our viral marketing, our evaluations and efficiency, or our selves. None of those things is bad, but we make all of them idols so easily. They take so much effort, and yet we make them idols so effortlessly.
"Who are we? We're awesome!"
But the gospel is the power to save because of Jesus' work. Because God is with the gospel.
Take your ego out to the woodshed, then, every day. And don't just whup it. Put a gun to its head and blow its brains out.
For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified.
-- 1 Corinthians 2:2